Still Alive

Just thought I'd check in and let you know I'm still alive, just barely able to stay awake! It seems that Radiation is really taking a toll on me. I am always so exhausted - and I've only been through 6 treatments, which means I still have 29 left to go!!! Not helping matters is my damn knee, though it is finally healing (I think.) I'm still hobbling around on a cane - and sometimes it feels ok, and other times I hear it loudly POP then start hurting like hell all over again. It may not be broken, but something is definitely wrong with it!
I went to Sam's over the weekend and bought a super-sized bottle of Glucosamine, Calcium Citrate with Vitamin D and some SAM-e from Walgreen's to help the health of my joints. Hopefully it's never too late to start a regimen, though I think it's pretty safe to say that some damage has already been done. I say that cause my last few bone scans have shown a loss in my bone density. Not a big one, but a gradual loss two years in a row. My biggest problem is taking these huge horse pills. I hate it. I hate taking more pills than I have to, but especially hate taking large ones. They are the ones that seem to upset my stomach the most. No big problems or anything, just a belly ache like you have a stomach full of huge pills. Maybe if I go have a snack it will help some. I'm trying to figure out when is the best time of day to consume them - so far I've tried morning, noon and night and none seem to be the right time, so maybe I should try splitting them up instead of taking them all at once. Any suggestions, cause I really don't want to be some hunched over little lady with weak bones - but man I really, really hate taking supplements!

So on to other things.....have any of you seen the 2nd season for The Two Coreys on A&E. I know there are probably only about 10 viewers besides myself out there. There is a whole lot of speculation going on, as a bombshell was dropped on the first episode that Haim was molested or raped by a friend of Feldman's - who claims that he was also being molested by another person around the same time. It sounds like these two did it all together - molestation, drugs, movies. The blogs are on fire thinking that Michael Jackson had something to do with one, if not both cases - but no names were given as to who did what. I'm wondering if it will come out now that it is national news, or if they will keep the secret for another 20+ years. Yeah I know it's pathetic of me to watch - but what can I say, I had such a crush on Haim as a teenager. In fact I think I still do though he's seen better (and far worse) days! I guess some girls never get over there first celeb crushes =) Besides I still hold hope that he will make a comeback. I may be the only one, but look at Robert Downey Jr. and what he's been through - and now he's back bigger than aver after Iron Man. People make mistakes, it's only human. Everyone deserves a second chance. So I guess that means I root for the underdog, ah well, someone has to!

Well today after treatment I should meet with the doc. Supposedly I will see him once a week through-out treatment. Unfortunately Ruben won't be able to make it to the appoinment cause he left this morning to do some work out of town. I'm not really sure where he went - Shreveport, Gulfport, Baton Rouge....I'm not sure. He tells me these things when I'm half asleep, so I don't ever remember. But I'm hoping to find out what exactly the doctor saw on my scans, and maybe get some answers regarding my treatment and what medication I should be taking if any. I'll keep you posted on what I find out!

Incision Update

Friday I saw the on-call Plastic Surgeon as mine is currently out of town. Originally I thought that he trimmed away the dead tissue in his office and had sewn me back up, but after two days of applying this medicated ointment we realized what was really happening. Last night as Ruben was changing the bandages he saw that this green ointment is eating away the dead tissue, leaving me with an open wound. Concerned, he called the doctor's office, to which he found out that my stitches had been removed, and that this ointment is doing exactly what it should. Left with a gnarly gaping hole in my chest, the doctor said to keep applying the ointment until my follow up appointment on Friday, during which time he would sew the wound close. He told us not to worry in the meantime, as my muscle is there protecting me - but I find it hard not to worry when I have a quarter size hole in my chest! At least I'm not in pain through-out this whole process. Since they severed the nerve endings, I don't really feel pain, although I have lots of muscle spasms and an overall painful, achy feeling on that side - just no localized pain. I'm finally starting to re-gain my strength on that side, but having this drain tube still intact really limits my ability to do certain things or feel comfortable. I want so badly to sleep on that side and can't! But even though I am feeling somewhat better and stronger, I am still taking it easy. I don't want to make the gaping hole any worse than it is! however, I have a hair appointment on Wednesday that I have waited 2 months for, and I refuse to cancel it. Somehow, someway I plan to drive myself there and go through with my appointment as scheduled. Luckily the salon isn't far, as it's just down the street on Highway 90. If Danny had his license, I might consider letting him drive me there, but in my condition and with my daughter with us, I don't think it would be wise to be giving any driving lessons! I'll manage, I am feeling better, and think that I really can drive myself the short distance. The only hindrance is this damn drain tube!

Tomorrow after 8 full weeks of waiting, they are finally coming to start the remodel on 1 of the bathrooms. We were told it would only take a day to complete, then on Wednesday they will replace the other bath. After the baths/showers are installed, Ruben will have little left to do - just the paint, light fixtures and new counter/sinks once we order them. Of course we still need to find a contractor to remodel the master bath, since it is a custom job. But slowly but surely we are getting there. We still have much painting to do, as most of the downstairs will require at least a touch up once Ruben paints the ceiling, but it's all coming together. We have new furniture for our living and dining room, and I just am so in love with the overall look. I really love my house here and can't imagine ever living anywhere else now. I'll never find another house like this. I know I have been horrible with posting before and after pictures, but I promise I will soon. You won't believe the transformation!

So out of curiosity has anyone been watching A&E's show The Two Corey's? I've been following it the last 2 weeks. I remember as a teenager being so head over heals in love with Corey Haim - and even given his drug problems, rumored stroke, and weight problems I still find him pretty damn good looking. I'd like to see him make a successful comeback now that he has conquered his demons. About a decade ago I dated this guy, who when I first met him held an uncanny resemblance to Corey Haim - but he later turned out to be psychotic, so I ended it after a year. It took me a long time to see how he was brainwashing and affecting me. But hey, you live, you learn! Anyway, check out the show if you get a chance. It's mildly entertaining, and you'll be surprised to find that Corey Feldman is married and his wife is hot!

I'll check back in later this week and let you know how everything goes.